I am an emotional eater, i now know this but it took me a very long time to understand it.

At this moment I know what triggers me, unfortunately it’s all negative feelings. Most often when frustration strikes in, this is what causes the worst episodes. It was so bad, that even tho I made a conscious effort to leave all triggering foods out of my pantry, that wouldn’t be enough and I would get out of my house with the sole purpose of buying what could settle this hunger.

It wouldn’t be an easy episode, it never was, i would buy whatever popped up in front of me if it were three itens that would be it, if it were seven I would buy seven and then I would eat all of it in a single sitting.

Funny enough, the only thing that actually stopped these episodes was adapting a total new mentality, were in this mindstate I could eat whatever i wanted, no restrictions applied. Guess what??!! After I applied this ‘fuck it’ mentality, this place of comfort stopped existing, cause I no longer craved those foods in those amounts .

It’s important to reference that at that time I already had an established fitness routine and would meal prep consistently. This means a lot because a daily release for those negative feelings had already been created, and the meal prep aided with eliminating the moments of exposure to triggers at the supermarket.

So in the light of the latest language used to describe this behaviour I would say I’m eating intuitively, because if I feel like eating more after the predetermined amounts I will, and I will no longer feel guilty over it.

The actual moment I gave up on my supposed diet was when after 3/4 months of being consistent with my diet and fitness I saw no results. My goal was to be at healthy weight and i had been stuck at 154 lbs for a very long time, so I decided to give up, I figured it wouldn’t affect me in a single way because even with the binging the weight wouldn’t fluctuate, it was a guess but I was right

So right now, after giving up that mentality my weight decided to decrease again, I am currently at 145 lbs and the goal is to decrease 10 lbs more to aid my knees carry me around, since I have some pain of past injuries, and help my body overall.

I have MS and it’s commonly known that being lighter diminishes the probability of having more episodes. The process has been slow, but I’m not worried about it, I’m sure I’ll get there eventually.

Carolina

Today, what I intended to write was a post about my yoga journey, but life gets in the way of what you plan sometimes. What do I wanna talk about??

I wanna talk about my intended vacation period for next year, and the fact that everything seems to take so long to be assured where I work. I do like my job, it’s challenging and you can develop a lot of abilities in there, but in what people are the matter it’s easier to see numbers.

Next year four of my friends are getting married, two weeks apart in Azores. This means I have to book the 10 day vacation period in that time space (coming and going twice would ruin everyone’s wallet), and dude I don’t know if it’s gonna happen. It’s not the wedding but more the fact that I wanna be there for them and I wanna visit the family.

We have a saying where I live, it’s translation is more or less “Concerns will take you nowhere”, well maybe someone should soak up some of that popular knowledge…

Anyway Thursday’s are for hope, the week is almost over, you’ve already did more than half of your “duties” for the week and in the blink of an eye Friday night is here for the weekend kickstart. Let’s go!

Carolina

My intention was to make a post talking about my weekend routine, since I apreciate it so much. I did start writing it, but reading the first paragraph made me question if this post would be relevant at all, because what I do ain’t special (it’s mostly a mix of chores and a bit o social life, if I’m lucky), it’s not a secret recipe to achieve happiness.

Weekends make me happy, this routine makes me happy, BUT I guess weekends make everyone happy. Maybe it’s the freedom aspect, that you can do whatever you want, or maybe, it’s because you don’t think of the future, you actually appreciate the moment you are living.

Don’t know about you, but I never pressure myself on the weekends. I don’t think of work, get jealous of people on trips in Bali, stress over food or think of the way I look. This weekend mindset makes me so at peace with my life and I regain so much strength from it that I look at every Monday with a Superhero costume on (bring it on bitch). At least I’ve given it credit for it, even if it isn’t his I still love these two days of the week were i live mostly care free.

So, if you’d like to try it, here are the “rules” to follow on weekends.

– Eat WTV you want

(For real, if you want to eat gummy bears or that burger or in my case, it’s usually nuts, go ahead. This won’t make you fat, and you most definitely don’t need to feel guilty.)

– Sleep what you need to sleep

(Oh yeah, if you need to be a grandma and go to bed at 22:00 or just wake up at noon, you should) 

– But, don’t stay in bed all day, or at least both days

– Clean your place up, you’ll thank yourself during the week

(Clean home is good feeling)

– Have a Social moment

(Go for a walk, go to the gym, have a dinner party, play games, you do you)

(Doing it Saturday also has a tendency to make you feel way more rested on Monday since you had fun and rested the next day)

– Make your weak easier

(I meal prep and organize my schedule)

If you try it, tell me how it went, how it made you feel afterwards, I’m genuinely curious.

Carolina

I’ve had this idea in my head since i can remember, what is life without all the structures we are used to? Being that work, social life, a life mate, family, health and hobbies. Can you be happy without one of those? Yes i believe so, but i also believe that you can focus on obtaining more when these fields, which i started to consider primary necessities, are already fulfilled.

We can also diverge on these subject and consider all the factors inside each of these topics that should be present, for instance the friends and all people surrounding you would ideally be supportive and understanding and work should be fulfilling in it’s objectives. BUT, let’s assume for all that these are checked, and grasp the menthal freedom that this feeling provides to reach into different fields of your life, the possibilities are theoritically endless.

ANYWAY, no to diverge, here are some things i strive to achieve in each one of those:

• Work wise – don’t get stuck, evolve, learn more and better yourself, acquiring more responsabilities and more freedom at the same time
• Family – mantain a healthy relationship, don’t allow yourself to get lost in the midst of what your family wants for you but listen to their opinions, value them and determine what’s best for you
• Health – you only have one body so take care of it, in this you have three pilars: exercise, food and sleep. These are the basics, there’s so much you can add to this!
  • Food – Struggled a LOT with these for years and years, but i seem to have found the key to unlock balance. I’ll make a separate post about this BUT i can tell you that unruled balance and intuition are the keys.
  • Exercise – for you to feel well and be at your best immunity game, just move :), this isn’t for the way you look but for the way you feel in your body.
  • Sleep – everyone loves this, being a little or alot sooo yeah
• The Social – friends are your family too, when i moved out at 18 yo, i created my new family away from home, they’ve saved my menthal health so many times i can’t begin to explain how important they are to me except with the first phrase
• Hobbies – Your life cannot resume to work, family, home, i mean maybe it can, mine can’t ahahah, if i don’t have hobbies i feel like my life is being waisted, i have a hunger for new knowledge, conquering objectives and constant change

(Removes PINK glasses)

These are all important to me, but it’s a fact that there are moments it all goes to shit, the folks are calling saying you don’t care anymore cause you haven’t called in a week, you haven’t been to the gym in two weeks and your diet is composed by fats and carbs.

That is OK, no one is perfect and absolutely no one should strive for constant perfection, if you strain yourself with the belief that you have to be on the wagon for all things, you won’t be able to adapt to the pririties of that specific moment and that may lead to all things falling of the wagon instead of just 2 or 3.

Well, that’s about it for now, Thanks for reading.